Ambiguous loss- a feeling of grief or distress combined with confusion about the lost person or relationship. This is my son. This is her son. I knew…when I met him for the first time, that I wasn’t his first mom. But I could feel I… Read More »Nate’s Journey with Ambiguous Loss & Grief
(*We use self-care and intentional well-being to mean the same thing) It is Wednesday…so this post will be about intentionally taking care of YOURself. YOU. Why do we make this a recurring theme? If you attend any Resource Family Training, you will hear it there… Read More »Wellness Wednesday
Published by Amanda Mueller Kitchens · April 29, 2020 · Today is Lyla Joy’s Judge Day Anniversary! Tonight we have ketchup with hot dogs and lots of ice cream!! Just like with Gracie Girl last week, we celebrate resilience, enduring love, family AND remember belly families while honoring the ambiguous grief… Read More »Judge Day
Published by Amanda Mueller Kitchens · September 9, 2019 · Two more sleeps. Two. Two women. One boy. She gave him life. I now help him live it, watch him face it, guard him as he grows. She gave him his blue eyes and freckles. I get to see those eyes… Read More »Two Sleeps
Published by Amanda Mueller Kitchens · February 15, 2019 · We celebrated the birthdays of 2 Littles in our home this week. As always, I become reflective leading up to and on the day of a birthday…wondering about belly moms and belly dads- how they feel, what they may be thinking… Read More »Two Birthdays, Three Mothers
Published by Amanda Mueller Kitchens · December 20, 2018 · The pages of Dominique’s story and mine intertwined while sitting around a table at a foster care support group. Like Dominique, my journey to this point started a little over seven years ago, when my husband and I became what is… Read More »Stuff. More Stuff
September 11, 2020 It is our boy’s birthday today. He is lovely, intense, loyal, explosive and rigid, playful, quirky, curious, smart and thoughtful. He yearns to be loved and accepted, and yet struggles to show his connection and feelings to people. His soul seems, at… Read More »If I Saw You Again…
Amanda here. If you know me well, you know I am not a hugger. Friends and family tell stories of my cringing or having a panic face as people approach for the hug. I am a classic overthinker, so it just makes for an awkward… Read More »*Hugs*
Monday- As I awoke at some silly time between 2am and 3am, the tasks, therapies, doctor appointments, house chores, OVC work, and social connections I both wanted to make and needed to make screamed in my head. I told myself, “THIS IS NOT NORMAL OR… Read More »Honoring My Progress
